User:Xerxes

hello. my name is xerxes, but you may also know me as momrocker. i've been interested in emulation and retro gaming (if you can call the gamecube "retro") since i was in middle school and i've always had a fondness for computers even earlier than that. i have crippling attention problems though which has kept me from contributing in any meaningful way. i have no formal education, and a very small but close group of friends. my real name is unimportant, but my friends call me xerxes or x anyways. once upon a time six or seven years ago, while still a teenager, i affiliated with a different community than the dolphin community. i probably shouldn't name it, but anyone who recognizes me would know anyways. that community was my favorite place on the internet and i eventually became obsessed and amazed by all the people there and their capabilities. i was just starting the process of teaching myself programming when i started using the site irc. it only took a few weeks before i got into a stupid, petty argument with the creator of the site, and instead of just backing off and letting it be, instead i saw weakness and i pressed the issue. i caused him (indirectly) to have a mental breakdown, and destroyed my favorite site, while also destroying any chance i had to learn from the people there and really become a contributor. nowadays the site is in complete shambles and i've blamed myself for it ever since. i can count on one hand the amount of times i've said anything on irc since all that happened. all i've ever tried to accomplish here is to atone for my past mistakes. i don't separate myself from the community out of a sense of spite or malice. i do it because i know if i let myself, i could cause the same thing to happen again. i'm sorry.